I feel sorrryyy....:( but i can't bring that moment back...!

This is one of the most painful days of my life...because it was a day when i became the cause of pain for someone...I wish i'd thought over it before i acted...:/

I was in the car...on the back seat...Mom was driving...we stopped at a signal...a crippled man with black stilts in his hands and one leg missing started moving from the footpath towards our car...my window was half opened...
I seldom give money to the beggars because I am against beggary...but at that moment..i involuntarily reached for my bag, took some money and spread my hand out of the window towards the man...
and to my astonishment...he solemnly said...

"Main bhikari nahi hoon.." (I am not a beggar)

He crossed the road...the signal shone green...the car moved on...but my mind stayed stuck to that incident for several days...i cried for many nights..if this is what a normal person like me feels...i wonder what he might have felt...:(

P.S. I am sorry...:(